When I lost my voice the event was shrouded in mystery. I didn’t understand what had happened, I didn’t have a clear diagnosis from doctors, and I couldn’t find a simple explanation. One day I’d been singing – or rather pushing to sing – and the next day nothing came out.
A decade later, I’m now a vocal health specialist. I work with people to help them understand how their voice works and how it can work better. In light of my experience, I’ve given a lot of thought to why it is so often the case that our sacred wounds give rise to our life’s work. I’ve come to believe this happens because our struggles spark curiosity.
When I look back on the intervening decade since I lost my voice, there’s a theme that explains how I’ve healed: curiosity. Curiosity led me to begin studying the voice in order to understand what had happened to me. At every turn in my pursuit of understanding, new opportunities for knowledge emerged and my curiosity led me down many different paths. The more I learned and talked to people with stories related to mine, the more my curiosity grew and gave rise to compassion and ultimately the desire to share my healing with others.
When we experience a great trial in our lives, we often revert to survival mode. How can I live through this event? For me, losing my voice felt like losing my identity. It takes time to embrace a new paradigm, but as we become confident that we’ll survive, we may even decide we’d prefer to thrive. So we become curious… how might I learn from this story? How might I share it with others? How might that sharing change me? It is when we engage in this give and take that the possibility for true transformation arises, not only for ourselves but for others around us.
I believe all of us seek to be more authentically ourselves; to connect with each other, to be more self actualized, and to express our truth. I am so grateful that my challenge and my curiosity have led me into a deeper connection with my voice. My life is transformed and different than I ever imagined it would be. I have found my voice when I hadn’t originally realized it was gone. I have become more of my authentic self. I am able to connect and express more fully than I’ve ever been able to. How did I heal? I let myself be curious.
So follow your curiosity. Ask yourself: What am I truly, genuinely curious about? Because our curiosity will not only heal us… it will heal the world.